It's Gonna End Okay

Well.....the day was somewhat eventful.
At 4 p.m. I decided I better get in my car and do a couple of important errands from the ol' "To Do" list...so that today wasn't a total bust.
Went to the bank (twice), picked up Ashlee's contacts, delivered my bike to Rachelle....and was gonna call it good.
At dinner, Glen discussed our need to get back on the scripture wagon (yay!) and also discussed his individual scripture study goals.  In addition, Glen is beginning his exercise program as of last week and he seems super committed.

Ashlee asked if we could take a family bike ride together for FHE and so we did!  I am so glad that we did!  I feel yucky but the activity outside in the brisk cold with my favorite people is good for the soul!!!

Monday, Monday.....

Here we go again.

Today, I woke up with the same terrible headache I have had since at least Thursday.

Went back to sleep.

Woke up again.  Still there.

Went back to sleep.

At 10 a.m., I am still laying in bed and I know I am not tired,

but I feel like crap and I don't want  to get up and face the world with this headache.

I get up.  

Drink water.

Get dressed to exercise in my fancy new NIKE Free shoes.

Set up my Nano.

Walk at an incline of 5-7 for 15 minutes.

Head hurts too much to do this any longer.

I plan to re-visit the treadmill later today.

Took my 2 shots and one pill last night before bed.  It's probably a new contribution to the headache situation.  I plan to set up all of my meds in my cute little containers again right now.

Hello, Monday.

HELP! I've Fallen....and I can't get up!!

Off the wagon.  It's true.  Lame.....I know.

I have been racking my brain trying to figure myself out!
I have come to the conclusion that the following events contributed to my demise.

In no particular order.....here they are:

1.  I weighed myself after 4 days.  Big mistake.  Wait a full week.
     Saw that I was up a pound and blew a gasket.

2.  Started my period.  Definitely added some water weight, some bad attitude, some more hunger, and some generally yucky feelings inside.  Stupid monthly cycle.

3.  Had a couple of nearly sleepless nights due to serious foot pain as well as loud snoring next to me.
Fatigue definitely contributes to my lack of success.

4.  Plantar Fasciitis:  Two nights on the treadmill reminded my feet that they hate exercise, and boy did i ever pay for it!

5.  Blurry Vision:  It's back with a vengeance!  Reoccurs when I have major swings in my blood sugars, one way or the other.  Makes it hard to focus.  Hard to do anything really.  (Adds to irritability too!)  :/

6.  Food Addiction:  Plain and simple, my body is addicted to carbs and it REVOLTS  when deprived of them for too long!

Okay:  That's it in a nutshell!

Stay tuned for the solutions....to come.....

Hungry and Tired

Whoa. I just ate a dinner and I am just craving all the foods I love.....
bread, milk, fruit, cereal......(the list could go on and on).

Tomorrow I will be gone from home.  I am already stressing about that too.

No exercise tonight for me.  I just need sleep and a better attitude in the morning.

I'm Alive!!!!

Today started late, since I woke up late, so I realized, as I went to run out the door to get my nails filled and rush to Ashlee's game that it was 2:40 p.m. and I hadn't eaten lunch!

I didn't have time to cook up chicken, so instead I grabbed some leftover salmon from last night, 

along with some spinach leaves, a few pumpkin kernels, and some balsamic vinaigrette.

Doesn't it look yummy?!

Truth be told, I normally wouldn't ever even consider eating fish on a salad, 

but hunger does weird things to a person!

Then, tonight, after arriving home from Ashlee's cheerleading and carpool to volleyball, I made a turkey burger which I ate with sliced string cheese on it, couple of slices of avocado, and wrapped in lettuce.

Again......weird.....but it was really delicious!  

{Let's just call this a tender mercy}

I have pretty much resigned myself to the fact that I simply won't be done eating by 8 pm most nights because of the crazy schedule we lead.  I'm still trying to get the main eating done before then, but I am simply unwilling to give up my morsels of nuts or disgusting 85% dark chocolate if I haven't eaten it.

Funny huh?  I need my food, even if it's pathetic.

Anyway, here is another victory:

When Ashlee came home for 30 minutes in between cheer and volleyball, guess what I fed her????

Same thing I ate for lunch!  Salmon salad with balsamic and pumpkin seeds!

And, Glen ate a bunless turkey burger too, but he had lots of ketchup with his

 (a very low move since he knows I am addicted to ketchup)n and he also ate tomatoes and avocados.

Guess what I am saying is that THE WHOLE FAM ate healthier today!!! 

YIPPEE!!!!

After dinner I took time to cook up several chicken breasts on the good ol' George Foreman grill.

Sliced them all up for tomorrow, and even set Glen up with lunch for work!  

Finally, after mopping the kitchen I went upstairs to the treadmill with a very bad attitude at 10:30 p.m., because I REALLY did not want to walk for 45 minutes.....but.......

before I knew it.......

So now.....I read a little good stuff and head to bed, and hope like heck my feet behave.  I took 3 Advil before I got on the treadmill, so I am hoping to head it off at the pass!

And with any luck, I will NOT BE visiting the kitchen in the middle of the night!!

Oh Ya. And Here's Today's Menu

Don't Quit! {Even though you know you wanna.....}

So last night was rough. Really, really rough.
I did my cool 45 minutes of exercise and was so excited about that.
Super tired....and let's face it....just plain out of it by 11:30 p.m. after having eaten dinner at 6:30 and a piece of dark chocolate just before 8.  (I HATE dark chocolate!)  I figured..."why stay up any longer?  It's not like I can eat or anything!"

So, I head to bed just before midnite.  Early for me.
My feet are on fire in bed.
Just like the old days.
Probably the "plantar fasc" as opposed to the neuropathy.

On fire, nonetheless.

Still awake at 1:45.
Get up and get a heating pad.  Try sleep again.
Nope.  No luck.

At this point I am super super hungry and weak and {MAD!}
I go down to the kitchen and eat a piece of bread and a bowl of cereal.
Nice.

3 am. Still awake.
Get BenGay, Heating Pad, and move to the empty bedroom, so I don't keep Glen awake,
smelling my BenGay.

Must've fallen asleep sometime around 3:30 am.
Get Ashlee up at 6:20 and I lay in bed til she leaves around 7:20 and then I go back to sleep until 9:45.

Not a great start.

Normally, I'd quit the week because now it's "blown" and we all know I am a very "all or nothing" personality.

But instead, I got out my Menu for today and made this cool breakfast at 10 a.m..

Yep.  It's an omelette (which I am not really a fan of) with fresh spinach, fresh avocado, and a teensy bit of cheese.  Amazing!!!!!!!!!

So I am recommitted!!!!!!!!!
For a minute.

I get it....I get it......ONE DAY AT A TIME!

Today is drawing to a close!  Phew!
Day 1 was a success!
Let me introduce you to some of my new friends:

Okay.  I am no good this blog stuff.  Let the pictures speak for themselves.  I'll fix this thing tomorrow.

Suffice it to say that I successfully ate the program, shopped for the right food, spent 45 min on the treadmill (and it felt so right), haven't eaten after 8 pm (extremely painful) and I am exhausted and need to read and go to bed.

One day...one day....one day.........
Nite.

Really?! Yes, Really.

Know how we are all promised resurrection in the end?
Well, so is this blog.
At the rate I'm going, it'll be now, and again every other year.